Fear of Losing Her

I like well maybe kind well I do love like this amazing beautiful bright go getting tough and sexy as hell woman who I fell for some time ago, well months ago and I can never get her off my mind, or out of my heart, when I first met her my soul felt an instant connection as if my soul recognized her soul, I can't fight it, I can't forget about it, I don't know what the future holds but  know it's just me and only me here with these feelings and thoughts deep inside with a whisper that's always had been saying just patiently wait, don't give up, something will come. I've backed up some, stopped talking about these deep feelings and thoughts but I sometimes just wanna run to her and let her hear it all from what I hold on the inside to let her have it out loud, but I don't because I'd be on my knees begging her not to leave again and I can't nor want to face that again because the pain I felt last time it went I fell apart, but love is love and the heart wants what the heart wants. My mind, heart and soul wants her and only her, no one else. I'll just keep missing her and liking her and loving her even if life has other plans and redirects my path, she has a place kept close in my heart always.