I Live For U

Each day I wake I think of you
Each breathe I take I do for you
Each song I listen to reminds me of you
Every time it rains the sky is grey and reminds me of how I feel inside
Can't stop saying your name
Everyday I pray that today or tomorrow or someday you'll come back my way
Everyday I feel like crying because your far away
Can't stop picturing you in my mind the sight of you gets me through
When I'm up late at night I stare outside my window looking up at the stars seeing which ones the brightest because so far it's your star
When I lay my head down and close my eyes your the last thought on my mind
There have been nights when I would wake simply because my heart aches
I keep playing it all in my head all the things I said, all things I should've said
I'm going to keep saying it
I miss you more than you know
I think about you more than I use too
I picture a life with you
and I will always say I love you at first sight
I feel we're meant to be
Please remember me

Wake and Rest

As I wake I see your face in my mind because your always the first thought on my mind when I wake, your name alone is beautiful, your smile, the look in your eyes when you look at me, your touch always gives me chills and electric vibes, your laugh always can make me laugh, your mind is brilliant, but the biggest beautiful thing of you alone is your beautiful heart that is so kind but yet easy to see has been broken before but above all you are strong and you've pushed through and no matter what you've been through you will see it through the end but from there to now your not alone, trust in these words, but also when I rest your always the last thought on my mind and I know then I may rest for the night that is ahead of me as the morning rise starts the next day new beginning but everything remains just as the days I wake.

Written March 16, 2017

Rejecting Others

All I do here is think of you day and night, yet here I am getting hit up by so many others who say damn girl your find you wanna be mine and I always wonder why, why do they ask me what I have been hoping all this time would be the words I'd hear from you, I don't know what to do but all I do is think of you and tell them no every time.

Fear of Losing Her

I like well maybe kind well I do love like this amazing beautiful bright go getting tough and sexy as hell woman who I fell for some time ago, well months ago and I can never get her off my mind, or out of my heart, when I first met her my soul felt an instant connection as if my soul recognized her soul, I can't fight it, I can't forget about it, I don't know what the future holds but  know it's just me and only me here with these feelings and thoughts deep inside with a whisper that's always had been saying just patiently wait, don't give up, something will come. I've backed up some, stopped talking about these deep feelings and thoughts but I sometimes just wanna run to her and let her hear it all from what I hold on the inside to let her have it out loud, but I don't because I'd be on my knees begging her not to leave again and I can't nor want to face that again because the pain I felt last time it went I fell apart, but love is love and the heart wants what the heart wants. My mind, heart and soul wants her and only her, no one else. I'll just keep missing her and liking her and loving her even if life has other plans and redirects my path, she has a place kept close in my heart always.

Wine or Whiskey

I got red wine hoping that you'll be mine or I got whiskey to help rid of all the pain and hurt that I felt inside but the choice is ultimately is not mine.

Written Feb 12, 2017

The Night Was Falling

The Night Was Falling,
It was dawn and I was just sitting there thinking if was gone
All my thoughts, feelings, emotions as if there was never none to had been sought felt and shared
I thought again could this night be the night of dawn that stole it all away?
The thoughts, feelings, and emotions.
I had thought I had could really be gone.
I felt a calm come over me and I then knew they weren't really gone.
They were still there, everything I felt, thought, and the moments that had been shared were still here within me not gone but here.
I sat there star gazing at the night that stood before as dawn broke ad smiled because I knew deep within me everything that was here then was still here even now and will be here to remain even as things play out in the motions of my life even now. Things will come to be as they are meant to because I knew deep down within me it was meant to be. I thought then and think now that no matter what has gone on since that day before dawn came I knew there was that moment that was shared before and it is still shared even now which deep down even before the night of dawn it gives me continued hope through this night that is a day soon where things will fall before me and set me free to be open upon the night ahead for the moments that had been shared will be shared again.
The thoughts will be thought of and the emotions will out pour over me into the nights and days ahead and the moments will be remembered but new ones will be made and shared together furthermore. This night of dawn then became dusk where the sun began to rise over the mountains crest and I finally was able to say with a smile I can rest.


Written on January 26, 2017

Truth Telling Tuesday

Truth Telling Tuesday, as a matter of fact I do like you a lot and I think about you all the time. I look forward to your texts. I miss getting a text, I miss you when your not around. Your the only one I care to be around. To you I maybe unknown but you to me you are something uniquely beautiful that I simply can't put words together to describe. But All I can say is since we met I knew there was something special about you, but could never really tell you. We may not always talk, see one another, we may even have differences at times. I may say something or do something that upsets you, I don't mean to hurt you, I want to be the reason you smile, not the reason you cry, or be angry. Your the person I hope to have by my side through good times and bad. I know I hold more inside than I should but look where we're at but I hope someday if not soon I could ask you to be mine.

Wrote on December 27, 2016

You're My Train of Thought

Your the first thing on my mind, the last thing on my mind, your always on my mind, and all I really want to do is send a morning text saying that I miss you, I care about you, want to be with you and hello to you.

Wrote November 27, 2016