Seventeen

It all seemed like a dream starting out when I was just Seventeen. Seventeen meant I was still trying to figure out who I was meant to be. Suddenly it all came to me unseen, it occurred to me maybe this is what I'm suppose to do. Start something new. I felt something move inside me as If it was trying to tell me this will grow me to become who I'm suppose to be and suppose to do. Seek after it, try it and maybe it will all come true. Not knowing the future, not able to imagine how much it would matter. Suddenly I saw myself supporting you never thinking I'd ever meet you because you are you and I am me, seeing we are two very different beings. Suddenly a once in a life time opportunity came to light, I caught the flight. Next I saw myself standing in line waiting to be able to say Hi and to have captured that moment after that it was goodbye. Months went by I kept doing what I'd been doing supporting you still not thinking how much it all would come to matter to so many others, how much it made others smile. I got chosen to go on a call to talk to you, not sure what it all meant but some how you figured out it was me on the other in of the call. That was the end of the call but that was not all. I was soon asked about how we had met and I got to share it will all. It was then I realizewd how much it mattered to not just them all but to me too. Soon I saw myself falling. I felt then I could share something personal about my life with you because I felt open and able to trust you, I still do. When I got your response despite my delay. I saw myself able to smile even during all the sad pain. Still doing all I've been doing since I was Seventeen. When all this started, now it's led me into my Twenties. It all still seems like a dream as though this has grown me to become who I was suppose to be and do. I'm still starting something new. Never imagining you knew about how I support you, you surprised me by liking what I do. Then I knew it all mattered to you too. We ended up having a few conversations, ones I never imagined. Months pasted then I saw myself stuck and not sure how I was going to share it with you. But I knew I wanted and needed to. I just wasn't sure how to explain it all to you. You and I could be related. Here we are now months down the road since then still no word, still not sure of it all. Let alone what's been on your mind but it's always on mine. I've been down feeling lost and have had plenty of time to think it all over and looking back as I do when I was just Seventeen still trying to figure myself out. I see now what I started then prepared me for who I am now and even after it all. It still seems like a dream but one that became my purpose, and reason. Why I still do what I've been doing, something I started then, is now is something that matters to many and to you and I. Beyond that though knowing what I knew then to what I know now, All I know is it matters more because This was all meant to be.

Prayer For The Martyred

Nine people were martyred on the date of 6/17 all in the name of Christ in building where we all gather to give praise here I am today kneeling before the cross in their names praying to the lord for mercy and sake on those that lost their lives in the name of the lord everyone world wide is crying at the loss of them by a young man lost in the name of Christ, I pray for the victims and victor that did the crime in his lost mind he comes to be redeemed set free forgiven in Jesus name I plea for the lost and broken may everything be forgiven in times like now may they be at peace in heavenly name

Amare in Italia

Juliet, oh Juliet how art thou so beautiful, you're smile is as bright as the sun, you're eyes shine like a star at night, have I ever told you how much I amare thee, I'm asking you to be my, Juliet. Amare amare thee, you're my dream in Italia.  

Person of my dreams

Every time I close my eyes I can picture your beautiful smile
I can imagine you right here next to me sharing in the same dreams as me
I saw the look in your eyes every time I stopped by, You have a twinkle that shines so
bright like a star in the sky
You have a voice that is so unique it was
like a song that spoke directly to me
Your laugh your giggle makes me
smile
Every time we touch I get butterflies inside my stomach, makes my
heart race because this is our place
I see you for your true inner
beauty but mostly only see you for the outer but deep down I see all of you inner
and outer
I think of you morning and night
There isn't a moment of day that I don't stop and
say I wish you were mine but maybe someday
When it rains out I think of running around chasing you
When there is a big bright full moon I just wanna dance with you
When it is sunny out I wanna picnic to the beach with you

But if it snowed I'd want
to make a snow angel just for you because I am telling you are my one true angel
The one I've waited for all this time I don't want to waste another day
without saying these words I feel deep inside so I am asking you to finally be
mine

When I am away I miss you
When I see you I want to hug & kiss you
When we sit I want to hold and cuddle you
I want to lay next to you so I want feel your warmth and hear the beautiful heart that beats inside of you
I picture a long happy life with you
A house, family with a few kids
and maybe a cat or two or heck a farm even if that's what you want to do
I want to wake up next to you so you are the first thing my eyes see I want the
first words I speak to be I love you
When I go to bed I want you to be the
last thing my eyes see I want my last words to be I love you my sweet

Today I am choosing to tell you truly how much you mean to me because I
don't want to go another day with out a word, I don't want to live with out you
knowing

So I tell you my dear I love you and more

Remember Me

Each day I wake I think of you
Each breathe I take I do for you
Every song I listen to reminds me of you
Everytime it rains the sky is grey and reminds me of how I feel inside
Can't stop saying your name
Everyday I pray that today or tomorrow or someday you'll come back my way
Everyday I feel like crying because your far away
Can't stop picturing you in my mind the sight of you gets me through
When I'm up late at night I stare outside my window looking up at the stars seeing which one is the brightest because so far it's your star
When I lay my head down and close my eyes your the last thought on my mind
There have been nights were I would simply wake because my heart aches
I keep playing it all in my mind all the things I said, all the things I should of said
I'm going to keep saying it
I miss you more than you know
I think about you more than I use too
I picture a life with you
and I will always say I loved you at first sight
Your the person of my dreams
I feel were meant to be
Please remember me and come back to me