Not Calling Back

Yo I came across your FB page, I messaged you many times but you never replied, It's like you were pushing me away and then you blocked me anyways

I don't know what that was all about but you gotta know you pissed off your own niece because of all the bullshit y'all put me through growing up

but even after all that here I am standing tall giving you a call and you don't got the lady balls to call back but instead you send me a text say this "Don't call or text me again, I don't want nothing to do with you"

I don't understand what I ever did to any of y'all, so what now I'm what "Stalking", when I'm just to call my Pop, you lied saying you broke ties with the family a long time ago but here you are posting pic's of a lil' kid named Benjamin the lil' kid I didn't know existed but he'll never know he has a big cuz that does exist from him Uncle Kyle the Rapist

I got on FB found my ex Aunt Michelle, My cousin Chante's mom and here we are talking and I came across you Chante on a app called Instagram and I gave you my info but you blocked me too, your acting like a fool like all the rest of the hill's do like looneytoons because all y'all do is drink boo's and sit on y'alls asses smoking a joint like y'all all that

but here I am standing back laughing my ass of looking at y'alls rap sheet and all I see is y'all geting caught and thrown in the slam and It cost two grand to get your ass out

I went on FB saw your post, you mentioned how it's been nearly a year since your dad past but none of y'all tried to make contact to let me know Granddad was sick with Cancer, he was diagnosed June 7- Past June 10, 2011 but here I was six days later 18 then knowing it was legal to make contact but even with that fact y'all didn't begin to try to call to let me know

Here it is going on two years now since he past, and there is no trace of where he lays to rest which leaves me to guess Nana had him cremated like she did her dog and maybe even her cats

Here I'm standing strong living life trying to make since of all this shit but over all I'm still tall and even strong after all y'all did

I'm not giving up I'm looking forward and dreaming will be a family as we once were but damn that's 12 years gone now, I keep the hope and I believe you'll look deep and y'all be like damn where's Brittaney?

Y'all may leave now but someday y'all will see me and my little me's sitting across the street so y'all better believe well see 4 and 3, I'm moving back damn that's a fact y'all be wishing you could go back and take all the hate and pain away, someday y'all hear my name but it won't be the same because then I'll be playing my own fucking game

I don't need y'all in my life right now because y'all are all up side down on y'alls heads acting out breaking the law and someday Jesus will call, that's all I'm done you may not want to be my father well screw you any how I got a heavenly father that's here for me so y'all can go fall I'm done peace out I'm done

Walking Away

Your walking away because you don't wanna spend a normal day with me

Your walking away breaking me down I invited you to spend the day but you decided to just walk away, away from what we could have had

It would've been us you and me together forever, but you decided it wasn't for you so you walked away because you didn't want to spend the day with me

You know I loved you but your never felt it to be true 
There could have been something like us but your threw it away by walking away

I invited you to spend the day with me but you were called away so you can get laid

You walked away
Because you don't want to spend a normal day 

Your breaking me inside but you still walked away
We could have been great together but you never felt the same way

You know I loved you 
But you walked away because you got called away just so to you could go get laid

There could have been something great like us but now that's over now, what happened was it something I said to make your walk away 

There's nothing like you and me
we could have made it through I just didn't know what to say or do

You know I loved you but you walked away yeah that's true
there's nothing like us now because you got called away so you can go get laid 

Your walking away because you don't want to spend a normal day with me 

Your walking away breaking me down I invited you to spend the day but you decided to just walk away, away from what we could have had

It would've been us you and me together forever, but you decided it wasn't for you so you walked away because you didn't want to spend the day with me

You know I loved you but your never felt it to be true 
There could have been something like us but your walking away

We could have made it through thick and thin but you walked away because you got called away because you wanted to get laid

Your walking away and you never looked back and said anything, we could have been something but you walked away before we even had the chance

Your just walking away, yeah that's true, I'll always love you 
Your breaking me inside because I invited you to spend the day but you got called away just to go get laid

I'll never understand why
but your still inside my mind 
I loved you and maybe always will but you walked away which is like pushing me away

There's nothing like us but there could have been if you just stayed true and never walked away, yeah that's true

Your walking away breaking me inside never wanted to spend that day with me that's true
Just keep walking away because that's all your do

I'm here all alone here without you, you got called away so you can go get laid why 
did you walked away

I wanted to tell you I miss you and I loved you but now that's just so far from true
Your walking away every time

Right For Me

The day I set my eyes on you I knew from that moment you were meant to be mine, I saw you curled up in a little ball in your little hut, I never knew I wanted you until I first met you,
now I do and I named you Zarek because I knew it fitted you then I got two of you, he was your little brother named Xeno that too made me love you, Now here it is nearly 3 weeks soon and just you know I bought girls just for you, their cute like you, small and furry and they remind me so much of the both of you, I named them Xena and Gabrielle because they were meant to be with you, now I have four that is indeed true and I wouldn't do any other hing to change that in my way your all my babies until this day never change because that's the way I like you, always know I love you.

Why I Ask Why

He properly wondered why did I do something wrong for you to do such a thing? I don't want my babies to die ever... I would rather die first

Why does god deny animals internal life but blesses mankind aren't we one in the same? Tell me why or deny me life too

Why am I here, I would've died but you never told me why I'm still alive? I ask you now tell me or so I will never understand why!

Your God but can't talk to I? You talked to Moses why deny me? I'm just as good as he so what do I have to do make a sacrifice for you

To prove to you that I am equal to them? God answer me for if you can talk to Moses talk to me or I shall not believe until I meet you..

You do all things but can't be here for me when I may need you by my side the most for heavenly sake? What did I do to not earn your side?

You do all things but can't be here for me when I may need you by my side the most for heavenly sake? What did I do to not earnyour side?

Where are you, where could you be? You never hear my plea when I'm down on my knees and screaming for you to hear me, show me what I need to Be told so I can go forward and be free from all this breaking inside because all I do is cry inside and out every night, can't you see?

Your Jesus for heavenly sake show me your here for me, listening to me and helping me.. I feel alone in this dark room with no way out, So hear me plea on my knees Jesus hear me scream, I feel lost in all this damaged degree can't you see?

I want to be able to breathe and feel free but never have I since I was a baby, I'm here but not sure why, I would've died but nope

I'm still alive but you never said why?? God hear me plea and answer me?!
As I weep down on my knees screaming for you to answer me to set

Me free from all this damaged degree I feel deep inside and beneath you see, I can't sleep at night because I just weep.. Help me sleep and so I can feel free

You can at least do that for me you owe me can't you see? All I do is lay here and weep waiting for you to pick me up and tell me

It's all going to be okay, I'm here never far just need to see and believe because your special in this way, you know I love you

And I'm not going anywhere, just say my name and I'll come right away, God why do you not see I'm hurting? I feel so lost.. I'm gone.

Mother Earth

Blue sky with white clouds
brown sand like quick sand 
blue waters far and wide
birds fly high
fish swim low
animals walk in all directions
rocks stand still
trees sway back and forth
houses stand tall
tornado's twist
hurricanes wash ashore
volcano's erupt
tsunamis flood
rain poors 
snow falls
ice forms
thunder rawrs
lightning brightens
earth in all the best ways called mother earth