It all seemed like a dream starting out when I was just Seventeen. Seventeen meant I was still trying to figure out who I was meant to be. Suddenly it all came to me unseen, it occurred to me maybe this is what I'm suppose to do. Start something new. I felt something move inside me as If it was trying to tell me this will grow me to become who I'm suppose to be and suppose to do. Seek after it, try it and maybe it will all come true. Not knowing the future, not able to imagine how much it would matter. Suddenly I saw myself supporting you never thinking I'd ever meet you because you are you and I am me, seeing we are two very different beings. Suddenly a once in a life time opportunity came to light, I caught the flight. Next I saw myself standing in line waiting to be able to say Hi and to have captured that moment after that it was goodbye. Months went by I kept doing what I'd been doing supporting you still not thinking how much it all would come to matter to so many others, how much it made others smile. I got chosen to go on a call to talk to you, not sure what it all meant but some how you figured out it was me on the other in of the call. That was the end of the call but that was not all. I was soon asked about how we had met and I got to share it will all. It was then I realizewd how much it mattered to not just them all but to me too. Soon I saw myself falling. I felt then I could share something personal about my life with you because I felt open and able to trust you, I still do. When I got your response despite my delay. I saw myself able to smile even during all the sad pain. Still doing all I've been doing since I was Seventeen. When all this started, now it's led me into my Twenties. It all still seems like a dream as though this has grown me to become who I was suppose to be and do. I'm still starting something new. Never imagining you knew about how I support you, you surprised me by liking what I do. Then I knew it all mattered to you too. We ended up having a few conversations, ones I never imagined. Months pasted then I saw myself stuck and not sure how I was going to share it with you. But I knew I wanted and needed to. I just wasn't sure how to explain it all to you. You and I could be related. Here we are now months down the road since then still no word, still not sure of it all. Let alone what's been on your mind but it's always on mine. I've been down feeling lost and have had plenty of time to think it all over and looking back as I do when I was just Seventeen still trying to figure myself out. I see now what I started then prepared me for who I am now and even after it all. It still seems like a dream but one that became my purpose, and reason. Why I still do what I've been doing, something I started then, is now is something that matters to many and to you and I. Beyond that though knowing what I knew then to what I know now, All I know is it matters more because This was all meant to be.
