Not Calling Back

Yo I came across your FB page, I messaged you many times but you never replied, It's like you were pushing me away and then you blocked me anyways

I don't know what that was all about but you gotta know you pissed off your own niece because of all the bullshit y'all put me through growing up

but even after all that here I am standing tall giving you a call and you don't got the lady balls to call back but instead you send me a text say this "Don't call or text me again, I don't want nothing to do with you"

I don't understand what I ever did to any of y'all, so what now I'm what "Stalking", when I'm just to call my Pop, you lied saying you broke ties with the family a long time ago but here you are posting pic's of a lil' kid named Benjamin the lil' kid I didn't know existed but he'll never know he has a big cuz that does exist from him Uncle Kyle the Rapist

I got on FB found my ex Aunt Michelle, My cousin Chante's mom and here we are talking and I came across you Chante on a app called Instagram and I gave you my info but you blocked me too, your acting like a fool like all the rest of the hill's do like looneytoons because all y'all do is drink boo's and sit on y'alls asses smoking a joint like y'all all that

but here I am standing back laughing my ass of looking at y'alls rap sheet and all I see is y'all geting caught and thrown in the slam and It cost two grand to get your ass out

I went on FB saw your post, you mentioned how it's been nearly a year since your dad past but none of y'all tried to make contact to let me know Granddad was sick with Cancer, he was diagnosed June 7- Past June 10, 2011 but here I was six days later 18 then knowing it was legal to make contact but even with that fact y'all didn't begin to try to call to let me know

Here it is going on two years now since he past, and there is no trace of where he lays to rest which leaves me to guess Nana had him cremated like she did her dog and maybe even her cats

Here I'm standing strong living life trying to make since of all this shit but over all I'm still tall and even strong after all y'all did

I'm not giving up I'm looking forward and dreaming will be a family as we once were but damn that's 12 years gone now, I keep the hope and I believe you'll look deep and y'all be like damn where's Brittaney?

Y'all may leave now but someday y'all will see me and my little me's sitting across the street so y'all better believe well see 4 and 3, I'm moving back damn that's a fact y'all be wishing you could go back and take all the hate and pain away, someday y'all hear my name but it won't be the same because then I'll be playing my own fucking game

I don't need y'all in my life right now because y'all are all up side down on y'alls heads acting out breaking the law and someday Jesus will call, that's all I'm done you may not want to be my father well screw you any how I got a heavenly father that's here for me so y'all can go fall I'm done peace out I'm done

Walking Away

Your walking away because you don't wanna spend a normal day with me

Your walking away breaking me down I invited you to spend the day but you decided to just walk away, away from what we could have had

It would've been us you and me together forever, but you decided it wasn't for you so you walked away because you didn't want to spend the day with me

You know I loved you but your never felt it to be true 
There could have been something like us but your threw it away by walking away

I invited you to spend the day with me but you were called away so you can get laid

You walked away
Because you don't want to spend a normal day 

Your breaking me inside but you still walked away
We could have been great together but you never felt the same way

You know I loved you 
But you walked away because you got called away just so to you could go get laid

There could have been something great like us but now that's over now, what happened was it something I said to make your walk away 

There's nothing like you and me
we could have made it through I just didn't know what to say or do

You know I loved you but you walked away yeah that's true
there's nothing like us now because you got called away so you can go get laid 

Your walking away because you don't want to spend a normal day with me 

Your walking away breaking me down I invited you to spend the day but you decided to just walk away, away from what we could have had

It would've been us you and me together forever, but you decided it wasn't for you so you walked away because you didn't want to spend the day with me

You know I loved you but your never felt it to be true 
There could have been something like us but your walking away

We could have made it through thick and thin but you walked away because you got called away because you wanted to get laid

Your walking away and you never looked back and said anything, we could have been something but you walked away before we even had the chance

Your just walking away, yeah that's true, I'll always love you 
Your breaking me inside because I invited you to spend the day but you got called away just to go get laid

I'll never understand why
but your still inside my mind 
I loved you and maybe always will but you walked away which is like pushing me away

There's nothing like us but there could have been if you just stayed true and never walked away, yeah that's true

Your walking away breaking me inside never wanted to spend that day with me that's true
Just keep walking away because that's all your do

I'm here all alone here without you, you got called away so you can go get laid why 
did you walked away

I wanted to tell you I miss you and I loved you but now that's just so far from true
Your walking away every time

Right For Me

The day I set my eyes on you I knew from that moment you were meant to be mine, I saw you curled up in a little ball in your little hut, I never knew I wanted you until I first met you,
now I do and I named you Zarek because I knew it fitted you then I got two of you, he was your little brother named Xeno that too made me love you, Now here it is nearly 3 weeks soon and just you know I bought girls just for you, their cute like you, small and furry and they remind me so much of the both of you, I named them Xena and Gabrielle because they were meant to be with you, now I have four that is indeed true and I wouldn't do any other hing to change that in my way your all my babies until this day never change because that's the way I like you, always know I love you.

Why I Ask Why

He properly wondered why did I do something wrong for you to do such a thing? I don't want my babies to die ever... I would rather die first

Why does god deny animals internal life but blesses mankind aren't we one in the same? Tell me why or deny me life too

Why am I here, I would've died but you never told me why I'm still alive? I ask you now tell me or so I will never understand why!

Your God but can't talk to I? You talked to Moses why deny me? I'm just as good as he so what do I have to do make a sacrifice for you

To prove to you that I am equal to them? God answer me for if you can talk to Moses talk to me or I shall not believe until I meet you..

You do all things but can't be here for me when I may need you by my side the most for heavenly sake? What did I do to not earn your side?

You do all things but can't be here for me when I may need you by my side the most for heavenly sake? What did I do to not earnyour side?

Where are you, where could you be? You never hear my plea when I'm down on my knees and screaming for you to hear me, show me what I need to Be told so I can go forward and be free from all this breaking inside because all I do is cry inside and out every night, can't you see?

Your Jesus for heavenly sake show me your here for me, listening to me and helping me.. I feel alone in this dark room with no way out, So hear me plea on my knees Jesus hear me scream, I feel lost in all this damaged degree can't you see?

I want to be able to breathe and feel free but never have I since I was a baby, I'm here but not sure why, I would've died but nope

I'm still alive but you never said why?? God hear me plea and answer me?!
As I weep down on my knees screaming for you to answer me to set

Me free from all this damaged degree I feel deep inside and beneath you see, I can't sleep at night because I just weep.. Help me sleep and so I can feel free

You can at least do that for me you owe me can't you see? All I do is lay here and weep waiting for you to pick me up and tell me

It's all going to be okay, I'm here never far just need to see and believe because your special in this way, you know I love you

And I'm not going anywhere, just say my name and I'll come right away, God why do you not see I'm hurting? I feel so lost.. I'm gone.

Mother Earth

Blue sky with white clouds
brown sand like quick sand 
blue waters far and wide
birds fly high
fish swim low
animals walk in all directions
rocks stand still
trees sway back and forth
houses stand tall
tornado's twist
hurricanes wash ashore
volcano's erupt
tsunamis flood
rain poors 
snow falls
ice forms
thunder rawrs
lightning brightens
earth in all the best ways called mother earth

Ocean Free

Big and wide
deep and light
fish almost alike
the ocean is big and wide
that fish of all kinds can swim inside in all directions
that's why the ocean is free even for you and me

Birds Of Beauty

Birds big and small
birds of all colors
they are all beautiful
in the way of art 
because they are so true and free
birds are unique
they fly so high
they can dive like a speeding bullet in the sky
they go far and wide
they can go any where
birds are truly beauty in a way no other can say
birds are amazing indeed they a;; fly high to the top of the sky and low to the ocean you know
that's the way of birds

Never Letting Go

Your here with me and you know I love you so no I'm never letting go, go of you, you can try and run, tell me you don't want me or even yell at me but I'm never letting go because this shows how much you mean to me even in the bad

I want to love, be with you, marry you and spend my life with you until the end of time dancing in the pouring rain

I want ti die old with you by my side, I want to sit on the porch and watch our grand kids sing and play

I love you so no I'm never letting go until the end of time while were dancing in the cold freezing rain

your mine always until death do us apart, you my other part of my heart and only our hands hold the key so be with me even if we live on the street, you can have all of me, I'm never ever letting go of you

Your Finally Here

You've been in me for so long
I've been waiting so long to hold your little hand, to look in your eyes for the first time and now I can because your finally here after all this time, your my little man I've wanted you for so long now I get to open my eyes and see you, hold you and kiss you and tell you how happy you've made me, now your finally here I promise to always protect you and be here 
I'm not going anywhere, your here , you were my biggest wish now I got you and I don't want to ever let you go
I just want you to know I will always love and be here for you , were together now and that your finally here and that's all that matters now my dear.

Believe In Me

Believe In Me because baby I can please you in amazing ways just give me a chance to please you my sweet

I can do all hings believe in me I can take you where you want to high or low, I can be your one true love as long as you believe in me 

follow me to the bottom of the sea an I'll show you what I can do to make you believe in me baby please give me a chance

I'll treat you like a royal queen if given the chance baby can you see I can do many things even when not seen

just believe in me I can be your everything, your mighty knight even your king your protector of all living things 

I can give you all that you desire in your biggest wildest dreams, baby I just need you to believe in me at all times baby because I want to be with you and love you until the world comes to a end 

but I need you to believe in me and love me until the world comes to an end

Just believe in me baby

Rainbow Flowers

Flowers bloom big and small
they all have a good smell
they all have beautiful colors
flowers are used for many events
happy and sad
flowers are amazing
their all so much alike but yet so different in ways as well 
flows is a beauty in it's self
flowers come in different colors as if they were splattered with paint of all colors of the rainbow sent down from above to color the wondrous flowers of the big wide world, they are simply all amazing a gift from the skies above

Purple Rain

Purple Rain is like the color gray
purple rain is everyday
purple rain is a beautiful shade
giving us all the amazing good grace
purple rain falls everyday covering the world with god's good grace
purple rain is like the thing everyone everyday looks forward to because it cleanses the world of amazing beauty in the light and in the night
God blessed us all with purple rain for clearing the earth of all it's bad disgrace making it with good grace is always a blessing from the god his name 
purple rain is an amazing grace, It's fun to run and play in 
it gives us the amazing gifts we see today and what we see tomorrow
purple rain is like the color gray because it tries to keep us safe
purple rain is here everyday and every night to keep us warm and safe
that's God's amazing grace with purple rain
purple rain is here to stay and we all feel safe until the night ends, we sleep to the sound of purple rain with good grace

Round and Round

Round and Round because it goes un and down
Round and Round because it goes back and forth
Round and Round because it goes all the way around

up up yah up up 
down down yah down down 
Round and Round oh yah baby do it some more oh yah just do it some more

Just do it some more 
I'm going round and round
up and down all the way around
counting back from 4x to forth because it goes just do it some more

oh yah baby, do it some more
Round and Round because it goes up and down
Round and Round because it goes back and forth
just do it some more 
oh yah just do it some more

sitting here in my 1096 
counting in the back on my head 4x
forward going down down down 
just do it some more

oh yah just do it some more 
Round and Round because it goes up and down
Round and Round because it goes back and forth
all the way around

oh yah baby do it some more, just do it some more
Round and Round
up and down
all the way down 

Round and Round 
up and down
back and forth 
all the way around

up up yah up up 
down down yah down down 
baby all the way around

just do it some more
oh yah do it some more
Round and Round going all the way up and down back and forth 
all the way around

Round and Round 
up and down'
back and forth
all the way around

up up up oh yah baby up going up
down down down oh yah baby down going down
back and forth all the way around