Broken

Seeing you everyday really makes be feel so good, but in the darkness I feel so alone and there is just nothing I can do.. Every time I close my eyes I feel a tear drop rush down the sides of cheeks and I can't seem to believe this is really me. I just want to feel free from all this deep depression but baby I can't, you know it seems to me that every body thinks I am happy but in reality I am not indeed. Here I am walking down the side of the street smiling and laughing but it's just all a big act. No one knows what I deal with out side of the box.. I'm stuck and there is no way out of this darkness. Every body sees cuts and I can't seem to trust. I stand here looking down and ashamed of who I am and I just want to feel free from all this hurting degree baby please set me free from all this false anti crying... I am so alone in a darkness of depression and I just can't feel free until I just leap of the top of this tree and then I can finally feel the real me and sing Baby I am free can't you just see and forget about the past and let me move on fast? I can say I may have almost been gone but here I am standing here finally letting you know the real me for who indeed I am for sure free..

The Proposal

Roses are so red
Violets are so blue
and I just have to tell you
I am so truly madly in love with you
I mean It just feels so like a treat
I can't stop showing you how much you really mean to me
Roses are so red
Violets are so blue
you just need to know
I got you and I'm never letting go
I just need you to know
your my light, my darkness and your
my love and my soul
Roses are so red
Violets are so blue
I need you to know
I want to spend my every waking moments with you in my sight
my mind, and by my side
Roses are so red
Violets are so blue
I just need you to know
I will protect you from any and everything
I love you and want to spend all my good days and bad days with you
in my mind, and by by my side
Will you be my bride and stand by me and exchange our vows, our love
and our rings and share my dreams and my everything?
Until death do us part
in sickness and in health
I love you and your my friend, my partner and my love
your my everyday life
Roses are so red
Violets are so blue
I just want you to know
I love you, I envy you
and I want to be with you
your my light and we say good night.

Fly I am so shy,Can't seem to reach the sky

Fly I am so shy
I just can't seem to reach for the sky
you know baby your always going to be by my side
In the day and night
your always my light
When your blue eyes shine so brightly it reminds me of the ocean pulling so closely to the shore
Fly I am so shy
I just can't seem to reach for the sky
you know baby your always going to be by my side
in the day and night your always in my light
When your blue eyes shine so brightly it reminds me of the ocean pulling so closely to the shore
Fly I am so shy
I just can't seem to understand all of this delight
when your eyes seem to catch my light
your eyes remind me of the ocean pulling so closely to the shore
baby you know we are alright just stay the night
even though your so fly and so shy
I just want to say I love you until the day I die and we say goodnight

Christmas is near and with good Christmas cheer

Christmas is near with faith and delight hearing Christmas bells giggle so near 

like everything is just right.

Santa while on his way the Christmas deer are galloping with Christmas Cheer.

The folk in the world getting ready for the great cold decorating with full of Christmas cheer making every inch of their homes look so big and bright.

Christmas trees are all big fun and the best part is dancing around like happy kids and putting on the lights and of course the great angel of heights which brightens the great way for the great white snow to fly. There's snowmen Santa and deer and little helpers called elf's to help Santa gather all goodies near and far. With snow falling to the sweet ground it makes it so fun the little folks can play and runs and sled. Everyone near and far are all dancing around the their Christmas Trees and singing Christmas Carrels and drinking sweet hot coco with big white marsh mellows with goodies in site and while the big folks are getting the little folks in to bed for Santa to come and cheer they must sleep with great Christmas cheer and dream of the big great snow and all with happy cheer they all slept will on Christmas eve and we all say good dreams.

Little Poem Rhymes

Sitting in ground going bowwowowow telling me I got the golden crown and I don't see how and your making so mightily proud.


Sitting in a tree saying KRST baby can't you see I am where I need to be because I'm so free in this mighty big tree.


Flouting in the sky feeling so fly makes me want to feel fine and Oh I see baby birds flying on by ain't the right?


Snow bro don't you know it's just so freezing cold in the arctic snow.


Paper bill baby seals riding on all four wheels.


I'm on a role letting you know I got to go because I see a baby white Bear flouting in the snow but you know it's so cold.

The Break Up

I hear your voice it makes me smile gladly 

I see your brown eyes it makes me gaze back into yours

I hear you say my name makes me perk up I say I love you

You ask me to take a walk and all you can do is go on about you 

 and  not ask how I've been and I said I love you and 

Yet you don't say it back

You ask me to sit and you turn and look at me with your brown eyes and 

all you have to tell me is I'm sorry I'm done with you

I mean It's been good and all but I found someone else that is better

for me but I do want you to know I did love you but I just wasn't

In love with you and I hope we can remain friends

What I hear his voice I am silent for a moment  and I look down and start to tear up

I say so you love me but your not in love with me and you just hurt me like this 

You say your really sorry but you don't sound so truthful 

I get up and say no I'm sorry and I just walk away and never looked back that day and we all just went our own separate  ways that very same day 

World so big,makes us want to see it

Green leafs, Blue Ocean, Brown Sand

Earth so big and round, outer space is so grey with bright twilight's in the dark night .

Outer space filled with all sorts of orbit planets, It makes us want to see it

Fall Leafs

Green leaf, Red leafs, Yellow leaf and Orange leafs
makes Fall feel so free with all the trees dressed in leafs.
Green leafs, Red leafs, Yellow leafs and Orange leafs makes
Fall feel so free like little kids are jumping in free Fall leafs and
 just be so free with out any weeds.

Jude why looking so blue

Jude why you looking so blue?

Jude was it someone that you knew?

Jude did they go cold blue?

Jude this can’t be true!

Jude it’s so true they went so cold blue!

Only if you knew, can you guess who?

Jude I’m sorry it’s no one your knew isn’t that true?

Jude why you looking do blue?

Was it someone that you knew?

Jude did they go cod blue?

No Jude this can’t be true!?

I’m sorry Jude they went so cold blue.

Only if you could’ve guessed who.

Jude I’m sorry it wasn’t no one you knew isn’t that the truth.

He Makes Me Smile

I see the look in your eyes the very first time you laid them on mine

, You know the truth of the way you make me feel

You know it's true, oh just so true ,

yes I am you make me smile nothing I can change can say I really do,

you make me smile o the high sky oh oh baby your mine can I say I never noticed why.

Breaking Down To The River

Roses are red and violets are blue
when I hear you
You cut me down
 I feel so empty
It makes me ashamed of who I am
When I see you
I can't help but break down
Every time I try to say I Love You
I just don't know If I can
When I hear you
I can't be with you
I break down every time I hear your rhyme
it makes me break down
I look down to the dark blue flowing river and watch my tears flow
along the river and never heard once again
You cut down like a uselessness piece of nothing
Has all this time been a game to a rhyme I can't seem to understand why
I turn and look and I see you and I wait around for you
No ever again you say You Love Me but ain't the truth?
All I seem to be able do is break down and watch my tears flow away like
They never meant a thing to either us.
I turn away and take a great big breath and dive into the river side and I am never seen again or heard
and It's all silent and quite now it's goodbye for night.

Let It Rain

Let it rain like an ocean side of grain. Let the light blue sky rise to the mountain side. Let the green grass wash away the tears of rain in the fellow fall today. Let it rain like it is a sweet day that smell like strawberries in an ocean trop. Let the world be filled with rain and let it was away of the scary parts tonight.

Walking In A Hall

Walking the hall of a school that looks so empty like no one has ever belonged ,The hall is so quite oh 
why so quite the hall is so dark There’s no whisper in the darkness of the halls, not a peep but wait there’s tends to be a small laugh, Walking the empty halls is a weird fairness that seems to keep the hall steady at a beet that no one can seem to see, walking the hall of the school is all but real, The school is a dark spooky sneeze and it is so cold makes you fall on both knees. Walking the hall of a dark school to most it would be cool. But to any real soul they know the cold dark hall is no place but for dead ghosts linger in the halls of the schools halls and watch us like, We are their meal, Walking the hall of a dark school with no real feel is as cold as a ghosts, Walking the hall of a school seems to be so cool but for real the darkness quite feeling of it is surreal no one can understand it, It is so quite but The laugh its back! Maybe there is someone near more than we think. Everyone seems to be freezing they can barely breath, as they breath out you can see cold air come from Small dark lungs that when you see your knees grow weak and you tend to not be able to see free as you feel them breath on you it’s a kind Chill no can understand cause it’s so unreal it will make you sneeze like you have a cold. Walking The hall of a school could it be real It makes you ache and scream the pain is unbelievable, you try to let free but it’s to real to see, Walking the hall ,there's that cry again But in the end it was all a so real a young girl woke up so tense she thought it was gone but then she screamed and was never seen it heard In the dark cold school in any of the halls, they say they can still hear her scream but most don’t believe. Could she be real, well never see.

Scared Of The Night

I'm scared of the night without you by my side giving me away knowing I'm crying my tears of blue like a ocean sooth,I'm scared of the night without you by my side you know it's right ,My tears run like a ocean sooth can't you just go blue and know whom is new in the night even though I'm scared of the night without you, I look outside the window and wonder where is who when I need them the most knowing I am scared of the night without any light an knowing you’re not near to fight. Scared of the night you know it's time, you know I am the life of the night you need me by your side isn’t that right. I am scared of the night when I need you by my side can you come right away and comfort me in the night so I can sleep alright? I am scared of the night when I hear the ocean sides come up on the shore and whisper in my ear in the night knowing I am scared of the night.

Why did you leave?Where could you be?

Why did you leave? Where could you be? I search and search, I can't sleep; I'm an awake late at night looking at a photograph of when you were still here. Why did you leave? Where could you be? I search and search and just can't sleep. I look out my window to look upon the late dark sky and I look upon the bright light and hope to find you. Dad why did you leave? Where could you be? I try to seek the truth but can't seem to find it, you hurt me because you left me as a little girl with no answers but just questions and said the things you did, I just can't seem to know why? Why did you leave? Where could you be in the world, do you ever think of me, wonder what I may look like? Why did you leave? Where could you be? So far away, I can't reach you? I want you to know how I am, what I've become! You left so soon a little girl who now has become a woman that deserves the truth. Dad where could you be? Why did you leave? You hurt me; I cry late at night and can't fall asleep. Why did you leave? Where could you be? Are you still living or have you drifted away to? I need to know, I want to know! Why did you leave? Where could you be in the world? You left me as a child so young not knowing any reason why, now I am older and still unsure. Why did you leave? Was it me, was I the problem or was it just the fact you weren't made out to be a dad? Why did you leave? Where could you be? Why did you cheat? Why did to want to take away the one thing that is so real and precious you don't care? Why did you leave? Where could you be? I know exacually where you’re at! You’re neither near nor far but in hell? Why did you leave knowing that you would lose me? Over time I have come to be a dark angel sent from another world to fight for what is right! I deal with pain everyday and I can't explain but feel and hurt the sight of it. Why did you leave? Where could you be? Nowhere for me to find, or contact that's right. Why did you leave dad, I don't understand, maybe I never will but I will be glad to hunt you down and seek what is mine. You left and never cared. Why did you leave? Where could you be in the world you need no one? Do you ever think that maybe I need you and want you in my life maybe that just isn’t right because I am not yours to claim? Why did you leave the way you did and never said  a thing except the bad hurtful things that rhyme in my mind and that I run by every day and night in my mind and cry awake in the night and wonder why ,why did you run and never wonder why? As I close my eyes I see the truth, you’re afraid of what maybe real from what is right. I see you and I think of how much I ache and hate you and how much I hurt just because of you. I feel like telling you I hope you die and never are revived to look that right again and never get the chance to say why. You’re far away and I can't wait anymore, I am done with the aching pain of hate. Why did you leave? Where could you be but in your own way a hell awaits you at the end of the light. Bye dad until we meet in the next life I guess, but remember this I will get what I want and will fight for what is mine and what I deserve in my mind I deserve answers no more than that all I want is that. Why did you leave? Where could you be in life now knowing it's been 10 years since we seen again? I pray for what could have been and what kind of man you would have been if you were here and looked me in my eyes and loved me no matter what. I've tried and now I just cry away and live away from what is true and what is fake. I miss what a father and daughter relationship is meant to be like and I will never see that day until I die. Why did you do what you did and why wait until now to not even try. I wait and wait and try and try but can't seem to move on by to what is great but dwell in what is and has been. I miss you and need you. Please come back and be my dad again and forever?

Birthday Poem

Birthdays is a way of a day to Celebrate a very special day, Birthdays is a way to make you smile away, Birthdays is a day to make memories and to laugh about someday,Birthdays are good days with people like you to celebrate with,Happy Birthday to you from a very special Little Sis to a even bigger special Like you.

Fire is what come to freedom but can't seem to stop to cry

Fire in sight makes us wonder why just can't seem to stop to cry,Fire in sight makes up wine for freedom,as we see ire so high we know

Night Sky Shy and Quite No where in site

Midnight so bright makes us feel alright,night sky so shy and quite makes us wake upon day,looking out the window to see no where in site

Days, Days, Days and All so many Days

Today is a boring day, A Cloudy day, why can't the sun come out and shine today? Boring days can be relaxing day, Fun days can be wild days, all days can be great days, and Days turn in to Hours turn in to Weeks turn in to Months and then years, days why so many days, there are fun days and boring days. All so many days are so different but yet also for of the same, why can't days be like hurricanes, why can't hurricanes wash the sad day’s away, Days day of all days... Days makes us pay for each and every claim of life weather its school or work each day is a day of life good or bad day is today. Whether it’s the past, present and or  future there are just so many days in each month, days, days , days we pray for good days and yet also bad days. Why can’t all days just be like all other days? Days, Days, Days why so many days look like cloudy sad days and why do some days have to be so sunny and so bright with the sun in our eyes make us can’t see the day until night the moon shines not to bright but not to dark neither, days are good and yet bad, days are many ways of good. Good day’s bad days we all have days.

John & Natalie's Love Poem

John and Natalie are good together making it better, even though there are some not so good times; they make a rhyme in every body's mind,

John is so shy knowing he thinks Natalie is so fine in his blue eyes, He can't seem to define his rights; Natalie is so bright, likes to fight but like to check if it's alright,

John and Natalie fights sometimes but knows how to make it look alright for everybody's eyes, through the good and bad they know how to correct the mistakes and make things right,

John and Natalie are a rhyme of sweet sunshine even though there are some cloudy times of days and nights,

John and Natalie knows their right for one another because they know how to make everything make since even if it may not to everybody else,

John and Natalie make everything right;

Natalie sitting on the back of the sky thinking out of site, she knows she can make it alright even though the joy of a baby boy is more than right,

Natalie goes to tell John we are one with the world of life and we have a bundle of life that is like a bundle of light,

John and Natalie look into one another’s eyes and say’s I dreamed of this day we would make a life and a bundle of joy named Liam Mcbain everything is more than alright it's perfect,

John and Natalie make it right in everyone's eyes and they fly away on a plane in the sky and married the day they became one of life.   

Beach Breeze

Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze makes me think of Ocean Seas, Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze makes me think of all the sweet seashells, Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze makes me think of all that lives under the sea but also on the beach, Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze makes me dream of all the pearls in the sea, Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze makes me daze of all the days I sang by the ocean shore with sweet fish in the sea, Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze it just smells to sweet like a ocean breeze you can sleep your dreams away, Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze makes me think of the ocean sea with dolphins so sweet, Beach to sweet like a Ocean breeze makes me think of the sweet blue ocean sea, Beach to sweet like a Ocean Breeze makes us feel free of that oh so sweet ocean beach breeze.

World toon of Rhyme

World so big, Sky to high, Sun so bright, Moon just right , Stars twinkle tonight, Animals whisper soundly as mankind says good night sweet world let us have another fine day of life like tonight . Sun so bright, Moon so right, let the storms come tonight to say farewell all night.

Stormy Night with a mix of Light

Stormy night, you make it thunder so right in the night, with lightning so bright; you know we can fight just right. Stormy night, you know we're so rights in the light we are just so wet, stormy night make me who I'm right to night. Stormy night just can't fight the fog tonight, the thunder is so alright and the lightning is so bright we may not survive the stormy night.

Rainy Days Are Hurricanes

Rainy Days with you, Makes it smooth, With a Hurricane for two

A Rhyme for jolie from OLTL

"John Mcbain is man that is a hero,Natalie Buchanan is greatest They both come from a long line of hard times but they can define it right with hearts like theirs they are bound to do the right time to find their way to one another again in the time of their son Liam Mcbain"

Scott Pot so High got us caught

Scott Pot you got me some dye , so we cna get high, Scott pot of my where could my butter hop fly,pot so hot scott where my wot scott so hot makes us get caught pot fot oh my gosh you got us high on may gold pot 

Black Smack

Black Smack I am back, where the hell is my mother man
Black smack I'm so freakin flat give me a rhyme I'm black sack on my back, Black smack oh my flat man black hat sitting on a jack making me dress so flag, Black smack we are back

Mother Natures Rhyme .

Vine so green sky so blue Sun so Yellow Dirt so brown
Where could Mother Nature deliever , Where grass is green clouds are so white mud is so yuck and the sun so bright can't there be some shine in out day time of rain so pure it makes our eyes Tear with twinkles like a bottle of wine..From A frog hopping to a horse snerling to a human singing to a all american feeling we are Mother Natures Call of Life to our shine of the holy Sky of the world we define, We are the life.

Vile in a Bottle

Making me smile even though I am so Vile ,Say can you get me a bottle? Bottle vile oh so shyle why do you make me shuttle? Vile bottle of so chile can you tell me a chime or a rhyme that is so fine, making me shy oh my you make my eyes shine.Baby you know your mine but where is my vile of a bottle of wine that we so can define to enjoy a nice night like to night? enjoy

Third Time The Rhyme Even though it may be time

World of mine telling me your mine?Wait what your who? Oh Me I'm Brittaney Peacock right ,I am a Senior even though I am very simular , Ya Totally.How old are you?What who cares how old I am, No seriously how old are you man ok I'm 17 years old even though I got a T.Where you from? Are you seriously asking me where I am from? Yes I am, ok Well I'm from Albuquerque, New Mexico and no it's not Mexico It's New Mexico.Do you have any pets? What who the heck doesn't own a pet? Yes of course I have pets 5 to be exact 3 cats 1 dog and 1 rabbit named Sassy,Maddy,Octoberia, Texanna, and Jaina...Yo man I am here , your where. I'm here don't you see me ? Oh see you yeah. Yo what you doing? Me I'm rapin like this Yo my name is brittaney I may be on 18 but I can see your a little Eighty year old with a small treat.Yo I may be 5'4 but hey Guess what I can dunk a ball even though I am so freakin small. I maybe be from the slow side of the willow but I got the knowledge  from my ma.i may not be able to sing but I sure as heck can beat you at other things haha. Smiles sweetly. Wanna know more just ask and I'll answer.

Same Rhyme just a little more of time

World of mine telling me your mine?Wait what your who? Oh Me I'm Brittaney Peacock right ,I am a Junir even thougH I may look like a Senior, Ya Totally.How old are you?What who cares how old I am, No seriously how old are you man ok I'm 17 years old even though I got a T.Where you from? Are you seriously asking me where I am from? Yes I am, ok Well I'm from Albuquerque, New Mexico and no it's not Mexico It's New Mexico.Do you have any pets? What who the heck doesn't own a pet? Yes of course I have pets 5 to be exact 3 cats 1 dog and 1 rabbit named Sassy,Maddy,Octoberia, Texanna, and Jaina...Yo man I am here , your where. I'm here don't you see me ? Oh see you yeah. Yo what you doing? Me I'm rapin like this Yo my name is brittaney I may be on 18 but I can see your a little Eighty year old with a small treat.Yo I may be 5'4 but hey Guess what I can dunk a ball even though I am so freakin small. I maybe be from the slow side of the willow but I got the knowledge  from my ma.i may not be able to sing but I sure as heck can beat you at other things haha. Smiles sweetly. Wanna know more just ask and I'll answer.

A little rhyme so tell me why

World of mine telling me your mine?Wait what your who? Oh Me I'm Brittaney Peacock right ,I am a Junir even thougH I may look like a Senior, Ya Totally.How old are you?What who cares how old I am, No seriously how old are you man ok I'm 18 years old.Where you from? Are you seriously asking me where I am from? Yes I am, ok Well I'm from Albuquerque, New Mexico and no it's not Mexico It's New Mexico.Do you have any pets? What who the heck doesn't own a pet? Yes of course I have pets 5 to be exact 3 cats 1 dog and 1 rabbit named Sassy,Maddy,Octoberia, Texanna, and Jaina...Yo man I am here , your where. I'm here don't you see me ? Oh see you yeah. Yo what you doing? Me I'm rapin like this Yo my name is brittaney I may be on 18 but I can see your a little Eighty year old with a small treat.Yo I may be 5'4 but hey Guess what I can dunk a ball even though I am so freakin small. I maybe be from the slow side of the willow but I got the knowledge  from my ma.i may not be able to sing but I sure as heck can beat you at other things haha. Smiles sweetly. Wanna know more just ask and I'll answer. 

Black Sky Like Mine With An Dark Angel Near By

Black sky like mine
I saw a dark angel near by
does this mean I died?
Black sky like mine 
Making me bleed a river so shy
I heard a angel whisper near by
saying your mine
Black sky like mine
what do i have to say 
to make you understand 
there is a black angel flying over head 
that is making the sky look
so grey
Black sky like mine the angel is making me weep 
what do you mean you can't see
can't see the black sky that makes us weep
Black sky like mine
you look up with your blue eyes and see a black sky turning to grey
Still can't understand why an evil angel flew on by that was mine
Black sky like mine the river of mine gleams in the 
eyes of mine 
angel flys by and land on the other side and sings 
Black river of the sky 
don't you mind it's just a dream
Black sky like mine 
you then wake up and look around and look in
to the river and you see nothing but a still
black river with an angels eye inside
Black sky like mine
I cloe my eyes tightly 
and whisper deaply 
Please don't be me on two knees 
let me breathe
Black angel sings to evily and makes 
me scream 
Black sky like mine you then sing black sky like mine
make me weep in the river of darkness
So I can see the true me
Black sky like mine 
black angel flew over head 
sat on two knees and whispered you now may 
rest in peace with out me
there is no dream like Black sky like mine with an angel 
in black in need
we all say good day and go our separate
ways and say that was once a 
Black sky like mine with an angel near the sky

"Letters To God"

Have you seen the new movie called letters To God? If anyone is a true believer in the lord and that he can make things happen for example me giving me a second chance to live or in other words god way of making thing impossible to possible ; Then you all have to rent letters To Got. It is based on a true story about an 8 year old boy named Tyler Doherty whom I can relate to in a lot of ways. If you have seen it or have heard of it please rent it. This 8 year old boy's story touched me and my heart in so many ways just by watching this movie and It brought me to tears because of the story,the reason they made the movie and the inspiration it has behind the story to touch millions and knowing me and this boy went through some similar things touched me and seeing how this boy helped others reach out to God and Pray and teach them the way of believe in our lord. Now I know there are many beliefs out there in our world but they all believe in one or more gods and there is nothing wrong with that. People judge people so easily before they even know them, we may say and do things we may not know what we do and or did but we are not perfect ,we all make mistakes in our lives and we learn from them just as we learn from Experience in school,work,relationship, enemies and everyday life struggles. This young boy has so much strength and courage he is some one I plan on sharing his story will you all. This little boy was fighting for his life do to him having Brain cancer which in some ways is what I had to do was fight for my life do to bleeding in the brain, the things me and this young boy had and have in common is we both under went brain surgery , we were both afraid to go back to school thinking we would get picked on people making mean comments but he fought through it with the right way through god his lord he wrote letters to god everyday mailing them through a regular post office and it sure did in pack a lot of people. I am writing this because there is a lot of kids ,teens, and adults having the same problems at Tyler did . you know when I found out I was bleeding in my head i was shocked terrified but strong even though I knew there were chances of me loosing my eye sight for ever,being paralyzed ,being in a coma never waking up but what mostly scared me is the fact I almost died with out asking God to forgive me for all my sins and bad mistakes I had made in my life by not Honoring my mother or grandmothers or any of my family and my friends in the way the bible states honor your parent and your elders and For the act of disrespect i gave to them and the way I treated others by judging them before I knew them. But as I was in the hospital seeing my family in a hard place I wanted them to make things right because If I had died I wouldn't want them feeling guilty for not getting along and having to say good bye to me. So I asked god to become my lord and savor which I should have done a long time ago but I asked Jesus to come in to my heart and let my family work things out and it did by the simple fact of my one asking god to help my family and I also asked my aunt to work things out with My Great Grandma even the bad times of memories are still there just a little act of kindness can make a huge change around you. My life was placed in to gods hands and I did have a lot of people praying for my my family,friends, and people at my school and people I don't even know. by me writing this I want you to know not to take things for granted because you can loose everything in a blink of an eye I almost did. I see the way others treat one another and it's heat breaking to see people tear others down because they may be different, small for their age, or they my like the same sex or maybe bi or just plain different , I see kids at my school and I smile because there is this kid named James in my theater arts class and he is different and does have some disabilities but not one single person makes fun of him they say hi James and it makes me smile. I know people thing oh my gosh he's a freak but all people regardless of the way they are ; they are meant to be here just as we are. I think about the 17 suicides that happened last year one of which was a local cypress kid which some of us may have knew him or not but I think of the way he was treated and hurt by the way those kids treated him and his spirit is with me everyday because asher brown was as equal just as me and any other human on this planet. Life is hard I know because well I have almost died twice in my life, I have a father i don't see and hate but with everything I have been through has made me a stronger person of who I am today. When I am able to see my dad and the others who have hurt me I will tell them I forgive them because I can't hate anyone for ever even though they have said,done things I won't ever forget but I look forward to the day I say I am free of the pain and I can finally move on with my life from the heartache pain and suffering and struggles you know. Life is not fair but we have to make some things fair like having to let things we love go and letting a person we love dearly move on to the next chapter of their lives. From what I have learned from having brain surgery is I'm living proof that anything is possible because as I was laying on the operation table god could have said OK Brittaney it's your time to say bye to earth,my friends and family but he said it's not my time yet. I have been touched by an angel which was last year , My aunt Mary passed and she visited me when I was about to fall asleep she touched my head and my mom was laying next to me asleep and I woke her up and asked her mom did you touch my head , she said no and then I knew It was my aunt Mary letting me know everything was of because I told her to come visit me in my dreams and she did more than that she touched my head and I will never forget it. she is always in my thought but I know that their is another side out there waiting for me and everyone else.I know most kids at our school wonder why does she meaning me ,why does she get to wear a hat and not us but soon everyone in the school will know why because My dear friend who is on the yearbook staff is doing a story on me and of how I had brain surgery and they will say wow she went through all that and made it! I will say it was god that let me live and his angels saved me . I am a better person now that what I was 8 months 15 days ago. So If you read this think about renting Letters To God , it will touch you just like it touched me and my mom. It's my top favorite movie now and is an amazing inspiring movie and story behind it is very touching.If your having trouble with things in your life turn to god pray to him and ask for his help in the time of need as I need you to help me please my family is in bad times and I don't know what to do god please give me a sign and help me as I say Dear God, I am bent on both of my knees pray to the that I am in need of help and answer I was needing your help on, you see my family is in hard time right now and I need a sign for what I can do to help make things right .I say please god help me and my family as we struggle right please watch of my family friends and loved one who have been lost but are still loved as I say good night I say amen and closes my eyes and fall asleep. I have wanted to attend church more often and work harder at school and work and my family and relationship and get more involved in my school, community and reaching out to others who have gone through brain surgery and help those in needs world wide. I am a woman of God forever and always he is my lord and Savor

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P.S Love Brittaney Peacock written on January 16,2011